When I first surrendered to Christ (some 5-ish months ago) I felt an over-the-top exhilaration. I went from depression to elation in a very short manner of time. I felt happier than I had in a very long time and thought this is what my life had been missing. And, while I still today feel the same elation about the goodness of my God. At some point, I realized that I should expect trials and persecution. Somehow with my tunnel vision, I read past many Bible verses that depict that very thing. At first, I was a little saddened and actually shocked. Eventually, I came around- begrudgingly. And, recently I’ve embraced that hardships and struggles have their place. They are the main ingredient in spiritual growth and seeing God clearer. Trials and difficult seasons are the very things that water our faith. The thing we would rather avoid is the very thing we need.
Most of my life I’ve had an avoidance issue. I would avoid confrontation or anything I simply wasn’t comfortable doing. Honestly, I’ve to lead a fearful life and recently started fearing God.
I feared the actual, the eventual, and the impossible.
Just the day to day living terrified me. I’ve come to understand I’m only supposed to fear God alone, and nothing else. Also, recently I came to the conclusion that God wants me to be free from fears. Before I understood it, but now I’ve claimed it as my own.
My Savior didn’t die on a cross for me to be bound and paralyzed.
I denounce fears and cast them down. Living a fearful existence is not why I was placed in Mother’s womb.
God is working heavily on me and in my life. He’s given me hints and clues to who He’s called me to be. And, I would react with fear. I was afraid because God has me living so differently than what I’m accustomed to. I feared because of an unknown future. And, very recently I decided that I’m excited about what God is and will be doing in my life.
God has changed my life, in un-listable ways. To a fearful life, to fear God. From depression and anxiety to peace and joy. From wandering to God placing my feet on the path towards my destiny. From having low self-esteem to God’s love and Word altering how I see myself. God is amazing, and I can never repay Him. I was a scared little girl to being a mighty woman of God. God did it! The changes I have seen in myself and the changes in my perspective I would never succumb to accomplish on my own.
God is peeling the layers back, to reveal who I really am. A mighty woman of God. I named this website AMWoG, not because of who I am, but who God will make me.
These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off, and were persuaded of them, and embraced them, and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. Hebrews 11:13 (KJV)
I’ve drawn so much from Hebrews 11, in these days. I’ve decided that although the things God told me I would accomplish seem far, that I would be fully persuaded of them. God can not lie, and He’s faithful. I also decided I would trust Him. That sounds a little weird, but often times we can claim the power of God, and still not trust Him. I decided that if I’m a Christian, that I would trust Christ. I would put all my eggs in His basket. There are so many verses that state that ‘Blessed are those who trust and wait on God’, and I want to be blessed.
These are a few insights I’ve learned or come to know. I pray this post helps to explain the name and purpose of this blog, and few things about my walk with God.
I love you, but God loves you more!