I’ve lived most of my life in fear. Fear of the known, unknown and the eventual. I feared what was there, and what was never there. Fear crippled and paralyzed, and made me anxious about what didn’t even exist. Before I received Jesus as my Lord and Savior, fear was my lord. And, sometimes the habits I’ve had for 30 years plus, creep back in. The thing that fear is really good at, is preventing me from obeying God. And, I just can’t have that; so good-bye fear.
The enemy really had his fun with me before Christ (B.C.). There are some nights where he’d bring up some news clip I had seen earlier in the day about a break-in, rape or murder; just before I went to bed. I’d lay in bed (I lived alone, at that time) waiting for the sun to rise. Even driving to a place I’d never been to, and had to rely on Google Maps; induced anxiety. This is only a few examples, there are many more.
And, apart from my enemy; I allowed fear to keep me from experiencing so many things. I didn’t attend high school dances or prom; because of fear. I allowed fear (of socialization) to keep me from meeting and getting to know people. I allowed fear to keep me from too many experiences to count.
While I’m not regretful in a sense; because God is more than faithful. And, I know I will have more chances and opportunities to do most of the things I missed out on.
I allowed fear to have dominion over my life, and I’m willing to accept my fault for that very thing. But, with that said, I’m no longer going to give a willing ear to fear. I’m not going to listen to the enemy’s ‘what if’s’ anymore. I’m not going to allow fear to move me aside from the path of my destiny. I’m not allowing fear to keep me from sharing the Gospel (offline). I’m not allowing fear to keep me from meeting my brethren, and allowing them to pour into me, and me to pour into them.
The point of this post is to solidify my departure from fea and to rest in God’s power. I pray for myself, and anyone who has given power to fear; that every day we will say ‘even if I’m afraid, God is with me’.
I love you, but God loves you more!