Lately, I’ve been dealing with God calling me out from my comfort zone. Also, how I’ve been hiding behind my ‘shyness’. While, I am a quiet introvert, and there’s nothing wrong with that. I have excused myself from socialization because, ‘I’m shy.’ And, coming to terms with the fact that my purpose isn’t going to fall into my lap. I know God wants me to take some physical steps in faith. I’m also coming to understand that all I’ve ever prayed for, is right outside of my comfort zone. All of these realizations, in one week. Sigh!
The one thing that has helped me this week is worship. I could spend a whole day just sitting in a corner, trying to understand all of this. I could beat myself up, faint, and lose heart. Or, I could worship God. Focusing on ourselves produces the fruit of hopelessness or pride and selfishness; while focusing on God produces the fruit of peace, joy, and wisdom. In those moments of worshipping and meditating on who God is, He has met with me. God assures me and gives me insight. “Comfort is a snare”, I heard myself saying.
Still, I’ve jumped back and forth between fear and excitement. Back and forth between this being a display of God’s love for me and wondering about my future. I know with ten steps away from my comfort zone, I’ll wonder why I’ve been so afraid.
I’ve referred to my attempts at socialization as ‘awkward’. Which, is negative altogether; since I was mostly referring to myself. It’s not that they are awkward, they just made me uncomfortable. Yet, I’ve always longed for meaningful relationships but, I convinced myself that I could do without them. It took building my relationship with God and enjoying fellowship with Him; for me to even value people and relationships. But, I know that even being in the company of friends’ can’t compare to being in His presence.
God has brought me a far way in seven months. I know God is foremost interested in our fruit-bearing and making us into the image of His Son. So, this absolutely is a display of His love for me. God wants far better for us than for us to be snared. God absolutely challenges me, every day. There isn’t a dull day with God.
This post is sort of all over the place. But, I thank you for your support.
How has God challenged you lately? Share in the comments!
I love you, but God loves you more!