Food vs. God|The thing about gluttony.


The definition of gluttony is the act or habit of eating or drinking too much.

My love for food, was beyond my love of Christ. While it saddens me to type that, it’s my awful truth. I knew I had a problem with overeating, but I always put it to the side. I knew that I was eating more food than my body needed. Not to mention the constant thoughts of food. I could likely recount all the food I have in the fridge, freezer and pantry. i thought it was normal to awake, and plan everything I was going to eat that day. It was normal for me to run errands, and make a mental food map; where I could reward myself for getting things done. I ate when I was bored. I ate when I was happy. I comforted myself food. Food was my life. I loved everything about it; food being on my tongue, chewing, and swallowing. And, the anticipation when I could do it all over again.

I’ve never dealt with obesity, and I eat a plant-based diet. When I went vegan, it fed this compulsion even more. Since I had no family or friends to look to, for maintaining a vegan diet; I depended on the Internet. What I saw were thin, in-shape people, who stuffed their faces. Apparently, vegans had to be sure that they eat enough calories. I hardly needed permission to overeat, but now it seemed as if the permission slip had been signed. It seemed like an awesome problem to have; eating without consequences.

Then, comes in Christ offering me abundantly more than I ever wished for. Who loved me off the ground, and assured me that I was loved. Christ convinced me that I indeed had a purpose, and I wasn’t designed to do life;without God. The Savior I ran from, welcomed me with open arms.

I can’t even begin to tell you how God’s love for me, changed my life. I scrubbed my social media of language and content that didn’t please God. I deleted my iTunes library, I didn’t enjoy entertainment that didn’t glorify God. I spent uncounted hours with my Bible open, I was divinely awakened. And, everything I saw was beautiful.

Daily life was no longer a burden on my shoulders, but rather I became a witness of God’s performances.

Last week, God held the mirror up to my face. And, He showed me that I’d de-throned Him. I realized Christ wasn’t first in my life. That God had been the rival of His own gift. I’m not going to lie, it broke me. It confounded me, and it made no sense. That day I threw myself a pity party, and questioned if God even wanted to use me.

Joy comes in the morning.

Then, God showed me example after example of how I preferred food over Him. Things I had forgotten, flashed before my eyes. I could only repent, and pray for victory over this ungodly thing.

Gluttony is indeed a sin, but I thought it was harmless. I mean, I wasn’t fornicating or I hadn’t killed anyone. I’ve come to know that all sins are against God. And, God doesn’t have a balance to weigh our sins. They are all deceitful, godless, and powerful.

So, then I fasted. Everything came up in this particular fast: my food compulsion, and my thinking God’s goodness relied on my righteousness (more on that later). God pulled back my layers, and it terrified me.I went back and forth between being gracious, and feeling like a withdrawn addict. A lot of moments of praying, studying and worshipping. And, there were precious moments of allowing God’s word and presence to fill me. I learned things about myself, but more about my God.

I’m excited to encourage and comfort others with this same problem. I know that God allows us to go through things for own good and, so that through them when can help our brothers and sisters. Please follow my blog, to keep up with my victory overcoming overeating.

I love you, but God loves you more!

The Thing About Idols + 6 Clues You May Be Dealing with Idolatry.


Idol: a picture or an object that is worshiped as a god.

“You shall not make idols for yourselves or erect an image or pillar, and you shall not set up a figured stone in your land to bow down to it, for I am the Lord your God.”  Leviticus 26:1 ESV

The Israelites made idols NOT because of their disbelief in God, but because of pride and control. After all, God had delivered them from oppression in Egypt and performed many great things in their sight. Yet they continually formed gods who would only secure war victories and riches; and who had no disapproval about their decisions or choices. The silence of their gods approved of their reckless lives.

The Israelites knew God, but had no control, or hopes of manipulating  God; so they formed gods. Gods that weren’t so seemingly hard to please; gods that couldn’t chide, discipline or CORRECT them. Gods that inwardly they could boast they formed. It all points to pride. So, they could boast of their own riches, victories, and give no one else the glory. That is why God hates pride. Pride gives self-glory; and robs God of the glory, and credit He is due.

Even today we make idols, but unlike Biblical times; our idols aren’t wooden statues, but live in our hearts. An idol is something that in your mind or heart de-thrones the living King. The thing about idols is that the shift from a desire to an idol is quite a sneaky one. Sometimes our desire turned idol, is not in essence unholy. But, the focus we give it, is.To the extent that we ignore all that God does for us, to focus on the one thing He hasn’t yet done. The other thing about idols is it can be dangerous; if we aren’t awakened and recommit ourselves back to God.

So here are 5 clues that you may be harboring an idol: 

1.When you experience ingratitude for an extent of time.

Now we all go through a spell of ingratitude, for whatever reasons. But in this example, this sort of ungratefulness is actual disappointment in God. And, sometimes bursts of anger or resentment.

2.When your mind is filled with same thoughts of wanting, daily.

When you can only think about how much you want this one thing. What life will be like when you have this one thing? Why isn’t God giving me this one thing?

3. When your conversations with God or prayers are based on one topic.

Sometimes certain urgent situations require constant communication. However, in this example, you can’t shut up about this one thing. Over, and over harping on an endless loop.

4.When your faith dwindles because God hasn’t given you this one thing.

You began to think God hasn’t given you this one thing because He isn’t able. Not, because it’s an idol. Or, not because your focus on it is unhealthy.

5.When you want that one thing more than you want God.

Before all you wanted was to develop a closer relationship with God. Your desires were all correctly aligned with God in mind. Nowadays, God’s a little further away.Because, your heart isn’t set on Him, anymore.

6. When our natural inclinations to praise and worship aren’t towards God.

This one thing takes all your time, attention, and fills your mind. You now worship that one thing. In your heart, you lift it up and behold it.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33 ESV

Conclusion

If any of these clues rang true for you; go in prayer, and ask God to reveal it to you. I went through a spell of making marriage an idol. I thought about it all the time. I dealt with lots of discontentment issues because of it. I told God ‘He was enough for me’, but in reality, He wasn’t. I wanted validation from a man. I wanted a prince charming to rescue me while ignoring my Savior. After tears and prayers, God worked it out for me. And, I know He will do the same for you.

I love you, but God loves you more!