Persecution: The Envitable

Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. John 15:20

 

 

This week this verse became a reality for me. Often times we read about things in Scriptures and because God hasn’t yet ordained them for us to know about the depth of it, we can read past it. Sure, I knew that persecution was sure as the sun; yet I would be lying if I said it didn’t surprise me.

There is something about righteousness that convicts people of their unrighteousness. For some reason, I believed that my personal pursuit of holiness wouldn’t stomp on others’ toes. And, I was yet again wrong. My God granted righteousness rubbed people like sandpaper.

The hardest part of all of this was being an actual follower of Christ through this. And, to follow the direction of Scriptures. I wanted to curse those who cursed me. I wanted to return their unfriendly fires. I wanted to tell my side to all who would listen. I wanted to get revenge! Instead, I blessed and prayed for them(Ro 12:14). I trusted my cause to God, I decided to believe that vengeance is God’s and that He would repay(Deut 32:35).

 

There something about suffering inside the will of God, that is so assuring and comforting. God was ever present. There is something magnificent about fellowship and worship during struggles. The happiest days could never compete with the joy, love, peace, and comfort that I experienced during the difficult days. There is something amazing about suffering for Christ’s name, it is beyond joyful and fulfilling. To taste a small bit of what Christ suffered for my sins has been exhilarating in indescribable ways.

I never doubted that this test and trial came from all of the goodness of God. And, yes there were tears. There were moments all I could do was weep. Satan has tried to use this suffering to make me hate, resent and curse. While I gave the hurt and anger of persecution to God, Satan would dredge it right back up. I constantly had to pray for those who persecuted me, to keep me centered. But, God is good. And, He gives us exactly what we need to get through it.

So, friends if you haven’t yet suffered for Christ’s name, I pray that you wouldn’t fear it. God will be with you the whole way. And, to those who understand this post on a deeper level- isn’t God good?  Didn’t He blow your mind? Wasn’t it amazing not to follow the flesh but the Spirit?

Comforting Verses for the Saints:

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. James 1:2-4

We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 2 Corinthians 4:8-10

Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. Psalms 34:19

Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. 1 Peter 4:12-14

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Why God Sends Us Afflictions

***I’ve been busy writing something pretty special, so just to keep my blog updated with content I’m going to share some of my personal journal entries. I hope you enjoy.***

Lately, I’ve found myself getting frustrated with Scriptures. Yesterday, I posted on social media how the Bible is a treasure. While sitting here today the Holy Spirit. reminded me of that saying. The thing is I know there are innumerable treasures to be found in Scriptures, often I just don’t want to dig. Sigh. I’ve been mostly reading the NT epistles and the book of Psalm. I find there is treasure above ground with this books/sections. Ugh. I can’t be a lazy Bible reader. I was reading the Book of Job, Elihu statements about God. A lot of the gospel in that. A lot of God’s redeeming power toward the Saints.

He delivers the afflicted by their affliction and opens their ear by adversity Job 36:16

God uses what we would rather not experience, to save us. I can’t help but think about the affliction God so sovereignly planned for me. Eczema. I couldn’t explain away these splotches, or no cream could save me. I used to be so itchy I couldn’t sleep at night. I remember I had joined a Reddit board of eczema-sufferers and poured through a lot of posts. I was seeking a remedy. Well, one day a young lady posted she’d been meditating on healing Bible verses. And, while I wasn’t interested in the Bible, out of desperation I was like ‘sign me up.’ Then, I found how people believed unrepressed anger could manifest itself in various diseases, including eczema. And, I was ANGRY. I was angry at God for allowing my Mom to die. I had stuff pent up on the inside of me that happened when I was in Elementary school. I always thought it’s better to keep it inside than to be confrontational about anything. I thought I was BETTER than those who ranted and raved. I thought anger was ugly and I wanted to avoid it COMPLETELY.

Most of those people recommended therapy and all sorts of new age things. I’m not saying therapy isn’t helpful, it is. But, as a Christian, I now know that He is the remedy. He remedied my skin that felt like it was on fire. He remedied repressed anger, that I didn’t have enough time, money or skills to deal with or compartmentalize. My spirit was like a stuffed closet, full of mostly anger. All the advice I saw online was for me to attempt to pull stuff out, and put it in neater. Only God could have rid me of repressed anger.

So, I know God will use the most difficult times in our lives to open our eyes, draw us near and to save us. No one likes suffering, but it’s the best remedy. We need to be saved from the pit, we need to draw near to God and we need for God to open our eyes. And, I hope not to speak as if suffering is behind me. We will leave it behind us for good when we enter heaven’s gates.

Your Comfort Zone is a Snare.

Lately, I’ve been dealing with God calling me out from my comfort zone. Also, how I’ve been hiding behind my ‘shyness’. While, I am a quiet introvert, and there’s nothing wrong with that. I have excused myself from socialization because, ‘I’m shy.’ And, coming to terms with the fact that my purpose isn’t going to fall into my lap. I know God wants me to take some physical steps in faith. I’m also coming to understand that all I’ve ever prayed for, is right outside of my comfort zone. All of these realizations, in one week. Sigh!

The one thing that has helped me this week is worship. I could spend a whole day just sitting in a corner, trying to understand all of this. I could beat myself up, faint, and lose heart. Or, I could worship God. Focusing on ourselves produces the fruit of hopelessness or pride and selfishness; while focusing on God produces the fruit of peace, joy, and wisdom. In those moments of worshipping and meditating on who God is, He has met with me. God assures me and gives me insight. “Comfort is a snare”, I heard myself saying.

Still, I’ve jumped back and forth between fear and excitement. Back and forth between this being a display of God’s love for me and wondering about my future. I know with ten steps away from my comfort zone, I’ll wonder why I’ve been so afraid.

I’ve referred to my attempts at socialization as ‘awkward’. Which, is negative altogether; since I was mostly referring to myself. It’s not that they are awkward, they just made me uncomfortable. Yet, I’ve always longed for meaningful relationships but, I convinced myself that I could do without them. It took building my relationship with God and enjoying fellowship with Him; for me to even value people and relationships. But, I know that even being in the company of friends’ can’t compare to being in His presence.

God has brought me a far way in seven months. I know God is foremost interested in our fruit-bearing and making us into the image of His Son. So, this absolutely is a display of His love for me. God wants far better for us than for us to be snared. God absolutely challenges me, every day. There isn’t a dull day with God.

This post is sort of all over the place. But, I thank you for your support.

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You Are Not Alone

 

I think where Satan can be triumphant, is when we believe that we are alone. When we think we are the only one being buffeted.(2 Cor 12:7) When we believe that we’re the only child of God, going through hardships. When he convinces us we are the only disciple counting the cost.

As if somehow, God is doing excellent things (engagements, babies, graduation, books, speaking engagements, etc..) in the lives of every saint- except you. The enemy really wants you to doubt God’s goodness! Or that we aren’t good enough to be used by Him.

You are not alone! I just experienced an attack that resulted in tears. I was on my knees pouring my heart out to God, telling Him all the lies I believed. And, how I feel that I know too much Scripture; to be here, feeling defeated yet again. How I should be able to defeat him, with the Word. Yet, I find myself not casting his lies down. Nor do I compare them with the truth.

God reminded me that I don’t need to sit and believe his lies, but I could call out for Him. I could run and hide in his pavilion.

God is breaking me down- I was (BC) so hell-bent on being self-sufficient. This desire stems from me losing half of my intermediate family (Mom +Bro). Since it’s just me and my Dad; and he’s not in good health. I felt that I would be alone and that I would have to know how to handle things on my own. Although I thought I was over this, it’s shown up again.

But, let me assure you; this Christian life isn’t easy. But, I know that it’s worth it. I know we have the ability to see anyone (who just happens to be wearing clean clothes) and think, ‘their life is probably better than mines’. Well, that’s a lie. And, it robs us of our God-given joy. We are all a mess! We are a mess God chose to set His heart on. We are a mess that is awakened with new mercies and we are covered by His grace.

You are not alone! This is hard stuff, pursuing holiness in a wicked world.You are not alone! Leaving behind what the world taught you, to cling to God’s word as the only truth. You are not alone! Sometimes..just sometimes you miss your old self and your old life. You are not alone! You’ve thought about quitting this ‘Jesus-stuff’. You are not alone! 

So, be of good courage, my brother or sister. God has not forsaken you, and He doesn’t have the ability to. You are in good hands, and you are so loved. Think about it! God will do whatever is necessary, for you to spend eternity with Him. You are so valuable, and the body of Christ needs you. Be prayerful, rely on Jesus, and He will lead you from everlasting to everlasting.

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Good-Bye Fear

 

I’ve lived most of my life in fear. Fear of the known, unknown and the eventual. I feared what was there, and what was never there. Fear crippled and paralyzed, and made me anxious about what didn’t even exist. Before I received Jesus as my Lord and Savior, fear was my lord. And, sometimes the habits I’ve had for 30 years plus, creep back in. The thing that fear is really good at, is preventing me from obeying God. And, I just can’t have that; so good-bye fear.

The enemy really had his fun with me before Christ (B.C.). There are some nights where he’d bring up some news clip I had seen earlier in the day about a break-in, rape or murder; just before I went to bed. I’d lay in bed (I lived alone, at that time) waiting for the sun to rise. Even driving to a place I’d never been to, and had to rely on Google Maps; induced anxiety. This is only a few examples, there are many more.

And, apart from my enemy; I allowed fear to keep me from experiencing so many things. I didn’t attend high school dances or prom; because of fear. I allowed fear (of socialization) to keep me from meeting and getting to know people. I allowed fear to keep me from too many experiences to count.

While I’m not regretful in a sense; because God is more than faithful. And, I know I will have more chances and opportunities to do most of the things I missed out on.

I allowed fear to have dominion over my life, and I’m willing to accept my fault for that very thing. But, with that said, I’m no longer going to give a willing ear to fear. I’m not going to listen to the enemy’s ‘what if’s’ anymore. I’m not going to allow fear to move me aside from the path of my destiny. I’m not allowing fear to keep me from sharing the Gospel (offline). I’m not allowing fear to keep me from meeting my brethren, and allowing them to pour into me, and me to pour into them.

The point of this post is to solidify my departure from fea and to rest in God’s power. I pray for myself, and anyone who has given power to fear; that every day we will say ‘even if I’m afraid, God is with me’.

I love you, but God loves you more!

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The New Way I Study My Bible

I’ve been consistently pursuing the truth found in Scriptures for six months. I can’t begin to even tell you how it’s changed my life. The Bible has changed me, and the way I perceive all things. Yet, I still have this thirst for the unadulterated truth of the Word. In previous times I depended heavily on the helps in my study Bible. And, even Bible commentaries. And, while there is nothing wrong with that; I feel the reason commentators came to certain conclusions about Word, is because they took their time in Scriptures. Sometimes my thirst for the truth will bring me to a place where I only want to understand; and not to patiently take my time. Honestly, sometimes I have preconceived notions about what I’m reading. Which in turns make the Bible read, what I have already believed.

Looks like chicken scratch, but at least I’m learning

I have vowed and prayed that I would like to see God clearer. And, not add on to who He is, and what His word says about Him.

That brings me to my new method, Inductive Bible Study (IBS). My Pastor briefly mentioned that’s how he studies the Word. I had seen it around on the Internet, but it seemed complicated. Well, actually it’s not that complicated at all!

Studying my Bible this way, makes me focus verse-by-verse. It’s a very interactive way of study that calls for marking or highlighting names, places, or actions. You literally lift up every word, looking for the meaning of the verse. I’ve found it takes more time than I’m used to. But, at least I’m fully understanding everything!

And, while there is so much more to IBS than I can hope to explain; I’m going to leave you some links* so you can look into this for yourselves.

The question of the day: How do you study your Bible? And, out of all your studying what verse, passage or truth has stayed with you to this day? Leave me a comment so we can chat!

I love you, but God loves you more!

Walking by Faith (& my shop)

Having an online shop was something I never thought I would do. And, while is not uncommon it’s something that never crossed my mind. Until the Holy Spirit suggested it to me. I was fearful and doubting who would even be interested in buying something I sold. But eventually, I made up my mind that God was more than trustworthy. And, that He knows what’s best for me.This is the beginning of me walking by faith, and not by sight.

This is a huge thing for me, it’s the first fruit of my communion with God. This is really happening! This shop is also God’s way of answering one of my prayers. God is so faithful. I feel so humbled by this opportunity.

…’I have spoken, and I will bring it to pass; I have purposed, and I will do it.” Isaiah 46:11 (ESV)

I also want to encourage anyone who’s been afraid when God’s revealed a part of his purpose for your life. Do it! Write that book, article, song or screenplay. Open that company, charity, or school. If God told you to do it, know that He will do it! Trust Him!

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I love you, but God loves you more!

Food vs. God|The thing about gluttony.


The definition of gluttony is the act or habit of eating or drinking too much.

My love for food, was beyond my love of Christ. While it saddens me to type that, it’s my awful truth. I knew I had a problem with overeating, but I always put it to the side. I knew that I was eating more food than my body needed. Not to mention the constant thoughts of food. I could likely recount all the food I have in the fridge, freezer and pantry. i thought it was normal to awake, and plan everything I was going to eat that day. It was normal for me to run errands, and make a mental food map; where I could reward myself for getting things done. I ate when I was bored. I ate when I was happy. I comforted myself food. Food was my life. I loved everything about it; food being on my tongue, chewing, and swallowing. And, the anticipation when I could do it all over again.

I’ve never dealt with obesity, and I eat a plant-based diet. When I went vegan, it fed this compulsion even more. Since I had no family or friends to look to, for maintaining a vegan diet; I depended on the Internet. What I saw were thin, in-shape people, who stuffed their faces. Apparently, vegans had to be sure that they eat enough calories. I hardly needed permission to overeat, but now it seemed as if the permission slip had been signed. It seemed like an awesome problem to have; eating without consequences.

Then, comes in Christ offering me abundantly more than I ever wished for. Who loved me off the ground, and assured me that I was loved. Christ convinced me that I indeed had a purpose, and I wasn’t designed to do life;without God. The Savior I ran from, welcomed me with open arms.

I can’t even begin to tell you how God’s love for me, changed my life. I scrubbed my social media of language and content that didn’t please God. I deleted my iTunes library, I didn’t enjoy entertainment that didn’t glorify God. I spent uncounted hours with my Bible open, I was divinely awakened. And, everything I saw was beautiful.

Daily life was no longer a burden on my shoulders, but rather I became a witness of God’s performances.

Last week, God held the mirror up to my face. And, He showed me that I’d de-throned Him. I realized Christ wasn’t first in my life. That God had been the rival of His own gift. I’m not going to lie, it broke me. It confounded me, and it made no sense. That day I threw myself a pity party, and questioned if God even wanted to use me.

Joy comes in the morning.

Then, God showed me example after example of how I preferred food over Him. Things I had forgotten, flashed before my eyes. I could only repent, and pray for victory over this ungodly thing.

Gluttony is indeed a sin, but I thought it was harmless. I mean, I wasn’t fornicating or I hadn’t killed anyone. I’ve come to know that all sins are against God. And, God doesn’t have a balance to weigh our sins. They are all deceitful, godless, and powerful.

So, then I fasted. Everything came up in this particular fast: my food compulsion, and my thinking God’s goodness relied on my righteousness (more on that later). God pulled back my layers, and it terrified me.I went back and forth between being gracious, and feeling like a withdrawn addict. A lot of moments of praying, studying and worshipping. And, there were precious moments of allowing God’s word and presence to fill me. I learned things about myself, but more about my God.

I’m excited to encourage and comfort others with this same problem. I know that God allows us to go through things for own good and, so that through them when can help our brothers and sisters. Please follow my blog, to keep up with my victory overcoming overeating.

I love you, but God loves you more!

The Thing About Idols + 6 Clues You May Be Dealing with Idolatry.


Idol: a picture or an object that is worshiped as a god.

“You shall not make idols for yourselves or erect an image or pillar, and you shall not set up a figured stone in your land to bow down to it, for I am the Lord your God.”  Leviticus 26:1 ESV

The Israelites made idols NOT because of their disbelief in God, but because of pride and control. After all, God had delivered them from oppression in Egypt and performed many great things in their sight. Yet they continually formed gods who would only secure war victories and riches; and who had no disapproval about their decisions or choices. The silence of their gods approved of their reckless lives.

The Israelites knew God, but had no control, or hopes of manipulating  God; so they formed gods. Gods that weren’t so seemingly hard to please; gods that couldn’t chide, discipline or CORRECT them. Gods that inwardly they could boast they formed. It all points to pride. So, they could boast of their own riches, victories, and give no one else the glory. That is why God hates pride. Pride gives self-glory; and robs God of the glory, and credit He is due.

Even today we make idols, but unlike Biblical times; our idols aren’t wooden statues, but live in our hearts. An idol is something that in your mind or heart de-thrones the living King. The thing about idols is that the shift from a desire to an idol is quite a sneaky one. Sometimes our desire turned idol, is not in essence unholy. But, the focus we give it, is.To the extent that we ignore all that God does for us, to focus on the one thing He hasn’t yet done. The other thing about idols is it can be dangerous; if we aren’t awakened and recommit ourselves back to God.

So here are 5 clues that you may be harboring an idol: 

1.When you experience ingratitude for an extent of time.

Now we all go through a spell of ingratitude, for whatever reasons. But in this example, this sort of ungratefulness is actual disappointment in God. And, sometimes bursts of anger or resentment.

2.When your mind is filled with same thoughts of wanting, daily.

When you can only think about how much you want this one thing. What life will be like when you have this one thing? Why isn’t God giving me this one thing?

3. When your conversations with God or prayers are based on one topic.

Sometimes certain urgent situations require constant communication. However, in this example, you can’t shut up about this one thing. Over, and over harping on an endless loop.

4.When your faith dwindles because God hasn’t given you this one thing.

You began to think God hasn’t given you this one thing because He isn’t able. Not, because it’s an idol. Or, not because your focus on it is unhealthy.

5.When you want that one thing more than you want God.

Before all you wanted was to develop a closer relationship with God. Your desires were all correctly aligned with God in mind. Nowadays, God’s a little further away.Because, your heart isn’t set on Him, anymore.

6. When our natural inclinations to praise and worship aren’t towards God.

This one thing takes all your time, attention, and fills your mind. You now worship that one thing. In your heart, you lift it up and behold it.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33 ESV

Conclusion

If any of these clues rang true for you; go in prayer, and ask God to reveal it to you. I went through a spell of making marriage an idol. I thought about it all the time. I dealt with lots of discontentment issues because of it. I told God ‘He was enough for me’, but in reality, He wasn’t. I wanted validation from a man. I wanted a prince charming to rescue me while ignoring my Savior. After tears and prayers, God worked it out for me. And, I know He will do the same for you.

I love you, but God loves you more!

 

 

 

God Taught Me

When I first surrendered to Christ (some 5-ish months ago) I felt an over-the-top exhilaration. I went from depression to elation in a very short manner of time. I felt happier than I had in a very long time and thought this is what my life had been missing. And, while I still today feel the same elation about the goodness of my  God. At some point, I realized that I should expect trials and persecution. Somehow with my tunnel vision, I read past many Bible verses that depict that very thing. At first, I was a little saddened and actually shocked. Eventually, I came around- begrudgingly. And, recently I’ve embraced that hardships and struggles have their place. They are the main ingredient in spiritual growth and seeing God clearer. Trials and difficult seasons are the very things that water our faith. The thing we would rather avoid is the very thing we need.

Most of my life I’ve had an avoidance issue. I would avoid confrontation or anything I simply wasn’t comfortable doing. Honestly, I’ve to lead a fearful life and recently started fearing God.

I feared the actual, the eventual, and the impossible.

Just the day to day living terrified me. I’ve come to understand I’m only supposed to fear God alone, and nothing else. Also, recently I came to the conclusion that God wants me to be free from fears. Before I understood it, but now I’ve claimed it as my own.

My Savior didn’t die on a cross for me to be bound and paralyzed.

I denounce fears and cast them down. Living a fearful existence is not why I was placed in Mother’s womb.

God is working heavily on me and in my life. He’s given me hints and clues to who He’s called me to be. And, I would react with fear. I was afraid because God has me living so differently than what I’m accustomed to. I feared because of an unknown future. And, very recently I decided that I’m excited about what God is and will be doing in my life.

God has changed my life, in un-listable ways. To a fearful life, to fear God.  From depression and anxiety to peace and joy. From wandering to God placing my feet on the path towards my destiny. From having low self-esteem to God’s love and Word altering how I see myself. God is amazing, and I can never repay Him. I was a scared little girl to being a mighty woman of God. God did it! The changes I have seen in myself and the changes in my perspective I would never succumb to accomplish on my own.

God is peeling the layers back, to reveal who I really am. A mighty woman of God. I named this website AMWoG, not because of who I am, but who God will make me.

 These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off, and were persuaded of them, and embraced them, and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. Hebrews 11:13 (KJV)

I’ve drawn so much from Hebrews 11, in these days. I’ve decided that although the things God told me I would accomplish seem far, that I would be fully persuaded of them. God can not lie, and He’s faithful. I also decided I would trust Him. That sounds a little weird, but often times we can claim the power of God, and still not trust Him. I decided that if I’m a Christian, that I would trust Christ. I would put all my eggs in His basket. There are so many verses that state that ‘Blessed are those who trust and wait on God’, and I want to be blessed.

These are a few insights I’ve learned or come to know. I pray this post helps to explain the name and purpose of this blog, and few things about my walk with God.

I love you, but God loves you more!